Past 3 years of my Life.....Evolution in Process

It can be said these 3 yrs have been the Building Blocks of my life. Before going for MBA I was sure it was what I wanted to do, I had no one to guide me but there was a very strong gut feeling that it would lead me to where I want to head...

That time I was very stupid, sweet, innocent, irrational, dedicated, emotional....kinda gal. I had no idea how the world outside my home, my city actually is. All I knew was Good....but when I left my city for studies it was then that I was introduced to the Bad and the Ugly. The events in these 3 years alongwith MBA enabled me to see this world from a different angle...and beleive me I didn't like what I saw. It wasn't even close what I had seen and learnt in 20 years of life.
I am not very good at playing with words...so all I would say is that the feeling of knowing that difference between expected and observed was too unaccomodating. It was the time my evolution began....the process of serious thinking and analysing began. I was introspecting more than ever, was researching myself...my identity. Sometimes I cried , sometimes I looked for friends because I was confused, sometimes I just kept mum.

These 3 years have taken a major chunk of Human out of me, I have lost a lot, suffered a lot....but I have evolved, I have learned...it has been the harder way...but then it has happened....

At times I wished my life to have some stillness some peace...on other times I just wanted to move on....

I have spend years trying to be the person others wanted me to become...I had tried to come upto expectations of those I really cared for ...but doing that I lost my way....I lost my identity to see them smile...
Mayb I am being selfish now.....but I need it...I want to be known as Shruti, to be someone on my own...for years I have been known as a daughter, sister, friend....now I hear my inner self striving to know WHO I AM...

Epic of LIFE

LIFE.....the longest journey....the toughest, very challenging, full of ups n downs, the best teacher.....

when I look back into my life, I see so much.....many moments full of joy, some of sadness, few that tore my soul apart...I would not have been the same person if any one of them didnt happen to me....so I decided I would regret none of them however painful it might be. Over years I have evolved into a very different person, stronger, less vulnerable, more rational, pragmatic.....but perhaps a bit less human.

Now very soon there would be beginning of a new episode in my life.....i am excited about the new place, new challenges.......full of hope for the better and brighter future.

I dream a lot...I am born to stuggle...nothing has ever been easy for me...now I like it the difficult way...I have somehow managed to overcome the worst of problems that i've ever come across...and i have accepted the fact that everytime its not necessary that the end would be good and in my favor...still I'll learn from it...I would do the best possible out of it....

I'll be happy...I won't take someone or something for granted neither I would let anyone to do the same to me...I've made mistakes in past but I've learned from them and moved on...

I wish to fly....high...
I love the rains again....
I smile a lot...its infectious and costs nothing
I felt Nothingness in my life....now its lost amidst Smiles and the Peace of knowing myself better

We are all Born MAGICIANS....all we need to do is realise that its just us who can bring those drastic changes in our life that we always pray to God....Until we want to be happy we wont be....

I've jus let the magic begin........................